So when I first started thinking about making this change, I toyed with the idea of starting over from zero. Selling everything I had gathered and just going back to the start with nothing. In the end, I decided to hold onto most of it for as long as I could. But the universe doesn't like half measures, and someone decided to help me get the rest of the way. The short version: My house has been tossed, there is very little left, and almost everything I own is contained in the corner of a farmhouse in Traverse City. This consists of about 3 days worth of clothes, a guitar, a coffee grinder and 8 boxes of cereal.
The part that is the most heartbreaking by far is my computer, which represents about 15 years worth of writing, lyrics, and music. I backed it all up, but most of it was backed up to protect against computer failure, not theft, so there is a lot of it missing. I was really planning to get Gmail File System working, too, but never quite got the time. I was planning to take it up north with me, but I thought "It's only two weeks, and I'll be back to pick it up then." And if wishes were horses we'd be knee deep in shit.
Most of my recording equipment was out already (thanks, Sid) so that is thankfully safe. I'm not sure how much is left, as I can't go by. My Da and Jeff are supposed to stop by today and I'll get the full report, and then I'll trek down this weekend to salvage what I can.
It's dissappointing. But truthfully, I was worried with the house empty and nobody stopping by that it would happen sooner or later. And if I've got to face it, I've always been a fan of sooner. So that's it, it's done and it won't get worse. I'll get a check from the insurance company and maybe that will help to carry me through. I'll write more, and the stuff that was worth saving will be found or I'll recreate it. Nobody was hurt and everybody is safe. And I no longer have to have dread in the back of my mind that it will happen. Its past tense now.
Da said, "You know the quote, right? Life is good, if you don't *weaken*."
Well, fuck em, they'll have to do worse than this.
Posted by ktismael at August 24, 2005 12:43 PM